When I started back at work full-time in November, I was only going to be working so much because Ian was out of work due to an injury (which has healed, thank goodness). Going back to work full-time wasn’t my first choice. In fact, going back to work part-time (which was our original plan) wasn’t exactly my first choice either.
In an ideal world I would be staying home with Harley full-time, taking care of him, the house and just being the stay-at-home mom I’ve always wanted to be.
You can imagine how much I dreaded my first day back. I was nervous, anxious, scared and very, very sad that my time home with my baby had come to an end.
Everyone kept telling me it would get easier…and at first it did! Or at least, that’s what I kept telling myself.
I wrote a post outlining the positives of being back at work. I believed them for a while.
And then I started working every night, and missing first words and other firsts that I should’ve been there for. That’s when I realized that being a working mom wasn’t going to be something I could just magically convince myself to be happy about.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m VERY luck to be able to have a job to help my family with their needs in an economy where it’s still very difficult to find something even part-time. It’s nearly impossible to raise a family on one income anymore. I mean, we could do it, but things would be very, very tight and there’d be no room for error when I came to our finances.
However, spending time with my child is number one in my eyes so I’ll be doing down to part-time at work starting in July. It’s not our perfect situation but it will allow me more time with Harley to teach him everything he needs to learn, and be there when he’s sick or gets a boo-boo.
I have also recently become a Beachbody Health and Fitness Coach (which I will discuss more in another post) to bring in some extra income on the side and with lots of hard work hopefully turn into an income which will allow me to quit my job altogether and work from home so I can be there for every moment with my son.